Classroom to Learn Lessons or a Cosmic Joke?

 

Same old unconscious patterns

Same old drama you are too familiar with

Same old manipulators pulling strings, thinking you can't see their strings

Same old conversations ending in arguments

Same old triggers

Same old choices people make even after asking for your advice

Same old complaints about the rich getting richer and the poor getting poorer

Same old complaints about politicians failing to do their job

Same old comments about appearances when change is the only constant in life

Same old need to go back to simpler times

Same old inability to accept what is

Same old cycles repeating when a pandemic is forcing us to ask deeper questions

Same old cycles of birth and death

Same old thirst for liberation



I wonder how many of us will break the patterns or are these patterns meant to be broken?

Is this the cycle of karma we are supposed to break free from?

2020

I just realized I haven`t blogged this whole year.

Seven months down - what a year it has been.

I have been totally unemployed and living in my own head probably made me forget all about this blog.

Anyway, I have been trying to figure out certain things that are true for me vs what society says.

Society: Travel, go see the world, that`s how you live and relax
Me: I absolutely hate traveling, the thought of packing makes me sick, I`m perfectly happy and relaxed with good food, good books, and my cat

Society: Have kids, they will change your life
Me: Again, I`m really content with my life

Society: Have lots of friends
Me: I`m happy to be by myself

Society: Big title, big career, that`s life
Me: I could never imagine myself inside a cubicle day in and day out, I`m happy with how I spend my time


I`m going to keep adding to this list so that I don`t get caught up in comparison fatigue :D

Thoughts

Post on LinkedIn; Then and now picture- a little girl sitting on a farm and grown-up version wearing a suit at UN

Conclusion- we should all aim for office jobs wearing suits because that is the glamorous lifestyle 

But is it really glamorous?

Then why do we spend weekdays wearing formal office clothes and weekends running to the woods looking for so-called simple pleasures? Isn`t it ironic that we slave away daily and spend that money looking for simple pleasures?

How come no one gets the irony of this?

contentment?

The thing about getting older is you stop spending time on things that no longer serve you. Even friendships!!! I realized that most (almost all) of those friendships were no longer in the path so to speak. I no longer wanna sit and hear gossip or other nonsense.

There was a time that I thought I should have a lot of friendships, but I'm fully content going to places alone.

I feel fully content all of a sudden. 

Hey What's New?

Why do people keep asking that question?

'What's new with you?'

I can understand if it's a way of trying to make conversation but then again, I find it slightly annoying. Then I worked through my annoyed feelings and got to the root cause (more on that spiritual work on another post), and I started replying 'everyday is new' .


So...what's new with you?     What are you up to these days?      Have you tried pineapple fries? :D

I did try pineapple fries from kottulabs. It was SOOO good!

Feel good series

Got sick after a while..well I'm pretty sure it's because I had way too much sugar and junk food.

Anyway watching the Good Witch certainly lifted my spirits.

Hallmark Channel is such a blessing to humanity...don`t you think?

Retiring from 9-5

After (being forced to) retire from 9-5, I now spend my days blissfully at home hanging out with my cat. Having mental breakdowns by having thoughts like ' how am I gonna survive' and 'what am I gonna do with my life?' and 'you have two postgraduate degrees and ended up staying at home' have subsided......

I finally surrendered into what I really dreamt of doing with my time here on earth. Few months ago, I was stuck in useless meetings listening to useless talks for hours (we all have been to those meetings that should have been an email). I always wanted to spend my time to dive deep into spiritual teachings, learn more about life, meaning, and understand concepts like enlightenment.

Its amazing the amount of time you get (which I wan`t prepared for or anticipate) when you don`t spend 60 hours trapped in a building. I am no longer impatient with sudden visitors,I now take ample time to answer my little nephew who always has a million questions and best of all, I have slowed down and literally learnt to breathe and enjoy each moment.

If this is what 'retirement' is after 60, well I am more than happy to be 'retired' in my 30's.

I am now slowly getting my head back in the game, working on my start-up and focusing on writing.