Birthdays

yes, another b`day....and yes i got a lot of presents i wanted....i didn`t get a lot of(happy) family time. this should be a happy post...so here goes..
day started with blowing out candles, b`day presents and breakfast to an orphanage nearby. I don`t know why i got tears in my eyes when they sang happy b`day.anyway i  felt bad that i`m complaining so much when i have everything. For some reason for the first time in my life, i`m glad i`m not 18 anymore (nearing 30 actually). its like this time i feel like a grown up, i`m not as naive as i used to be. i`m starting to see the difference between fake smiles and real ones, i guess the art of living should get easier.
And the birthday wishes, this time all my friends and their husbands wished me. I didn`t start thinking about not being married (which is a good thing) , but i did wish i had a guy to call mine (guess he`s not interested).
This is gonna be a very eventful year, a lot of responsibilities, challenges and i`m pretty sure i`m gonna get stronger and wiser.


was reading about Miss Venezuela who died of breast cancer, i really need to schedule that mammogram soon,i`m getting more frequent pains and having trouble lifting my arm now.(you are supposed to be a scientist and you should know better!!)



wanted this to be a happy post but i guess it didn`t.oh well. this is my space to rant.

i just...

Need to feel loved

this year.....

Time alone...lots of time alone
Trip
Coffee dates :-)
LabTraining
chickenpox :-(
More time alone -learned a lot about myself
First car (Steve)
First job
haircut and straightening for 3rd(not sure) time
Learning about ppl
Quitting my first(crappy) job
Depressed state
Learning about family members
My place :-)
More time alone
Realizations
maid of honor at my friends wedding :-)
Best friend`s baby boy ( first time i got excited about a child being born)
blabbering my feelings
second job :-) ( hopefully it will be great and will last long)
New friends :-)
First proper salary :-))))

I think it`s been a great year, yes there were extremely depressed moments but all in all it was all good:-)

 

perfect

conversation with a collegue..

her:hey you broke your nail!
me:yeah, got caught up in something, can`t remember
her:So your not perfect!!
me:(what????) you think i`m perfect??
her:well..yeah...
I didn`t even wanna to reply to that...never thought that anyone would think i`m miss.perfect

lesson #5

Don`t try to change others opinion about you. They will think whatever they want.Just be yourself, be true to what you believe in and do the right thing.

December

December started off with my new job (yay!!), which seems okay for now. There`s a lot to learn which is great. what i didn`t expect was wearing a saree (in a lab of all places). I don`t hate a lot of things but wearing a saree early morning pisses me off, but i`m actually surprised that i`m going through with it. Maybe i might end up liking wearing a saree or maybe not...

Saturday

coffee
lunch
driving around
one of those very rare nights that i went to bed smiling