Holiday

Five days in Bangkok with my parents and some tour group next week ( honestly,i would've preferred not going with a tour group).....i'm kinda dreading it actually. Hopefully i'll be able to have a good time shopping; maybe i might be able to buy the leopard print handbag i dreamt about :-) I don't think i have spent more than 3 days away from home, anyway one thing i'm definitely sure about is...  missing him :-(

running out of tears...

i guess the title says it all...im sorry...i really do need to grow up

There are times....

If the purpose of your existence is to mentally blackmail your child, u never should have had one in the first place.

Fuck!

why do i keep screwing up things when its going so well???.......Maybe its the extreme opposition from my parents or  the nasty comments of my mom on a daily basis.....i just feel like i'm gonna explode and hurt the man i love the most :-( i really hope that i don't..

feels right

my last post was a bit too dramatic i guess..i just freak out easily, i never take risks unless i'm pushed. But this time around i want this, my heart keeps telling me that it feels right and i`m gonna listen.

one step forward two steps back

Falling in love...happens in the most unexpected moments......i thought i found what i`ve been looking for.........but...........i dont feel like i`m loved.A friend of mine actually told me not to expect romantic gestures that we`ve been dreaming about since we were little girls, but i can`t help it, i like fairytales.

I don`t know what to look forward to anymore.....where do i turn when the person i wanna share my life with is not even there when i need to talk?

Therapy

I think i really need a therapy session on how to be in a relationship.