Scientists and non-scientists

Having worked as a scientist in the past i know for a fact that this is what happens to 99.9% of research :-(

The old lady next door

Every single Saturday morning starts with her loud music. It's saturday for heaven`s sake! some of us need to sleep till noon!. But no, i wake up to the sound of a bunch of songs i have never even heard before. If she wants to play songs on a saturday that loud, she might as well play songs of Justin Beiber or one direction or Miley cyrus or Gannam style or...the point is she should play current songs!! Anyway to be honest i'm starting to like those old songs she's playing. sounds kinda nice for a change.

p.s. Just wrote what my neighbor's kids probably think whenever i play my usual songs every saturday :-D and yeah, the old lady is me :-D well i'm not that old. but i feel old when i try to listen to the radio, i can barely listen to the crap they play, so i downloaded all of my fav songs from the 1998/00's and just started playing, i have heard what songs my neighbor's kids listen to and i can honestly say i feel so old cz it sounds like crap!  

Drama continues

It has been a very dramatic couple of weeks. Well my brother moved in next door with lil nephew of mine, all was well until (as expected) my mom, the drama queen herself stirred up a few(lot)  problems and my sister in law was crying (even her mom cried!) and my mom was acting like.....well i donno the exact word. Anyway its sad to see how my brother and sis in law is coping with the meddling of my mom and its actually truly amazing how one person can actually literally suck the joy out of life just by talking!

well even though i expected that drama, what i didn`t expect was the 'situation' of my friend. Well they have been married for almost two years now and when she texted me she wanted to talk and was having few problems, i just assumed its a minor disagreement. When she told me her husband is leaving her, i was truly shocked! When she finished telling me her side of the story i ended up in tears. I just didn`t expect her out of all ppl to get into that. 

And another friend of mine kept texting me describing how frustrated she is and was dreaming of a divorce; she has been married for one year.

I honestly don`t know how to advice or what to say to them except being there for them. 

peace , calm , happiness and love is what i hope and wish for all of them......

The fall

I was in charge of taking care of my adorabal nephew (he's almost a 1yr old now) on Saturday. I thought it would be hard, but he wasn`t so fussy and was sleeping so peacefully i decided to watch the new british series The Fall. Its about a serial killer and for some reason got me hooked. While i was watching it my nephew made a slight murmur and when back to his sleep. I paused the episode to see if he was about to wake up. I looked at his innocent face, peacefully sleeping, without a care in the world, turned back to my screen where the scene was  the moment a woman being tortured to death. I glanced back at my nephew again, so much innocence... even serial killers had an 'innocent' stage like that. What changes them?

Why can`t ppl be kind to each other, without all tha back stabbing and ...oh well i don`t wanna write a whole list of 'bad' things. But why ? Why can`t we spread kindness?

I have been following kindness girl's blog for a while and started to think, maybe i should try some way of spreading kindness. 

Just one kind act for each day. 

sick and tired

sick and tired of everyone who wants me to fail
sick and tired of my own mother who wants me to have a failed marriage
sick and tired of my mother insulting me every single day
sick and tired of not knowing what i want anymore
sick and tired of hurting the one i love
sick and tired wanting to hurt myself
sick and tired of not being able to control my emotions
sick and tired of living

facebook stalking

No, i didn`t start stalking anyone :-) My boss just started complaining that his friend who was a major 'player' has settled down with kids and have a normal life and that most of the time those who play hard endup with everything and those who workhard endup with, well not everything. I ofcourse disagreed, but the thought made me wonder, what happened to the 'players' in my class? So i clicked on the most useful stalking site(which is facebook) and clicked on friends of friends pictures to see how they are now. Turns out in our batch the most notorious players have ended up marrying into very rich good looking dudes and most pregnant or with kids. I know some of them actually said from school days that marrying a rich dude was their goal and didn`t do anything else than 'playing around' with boys. Well, i`m glad they got what they wanted and i truely hope they are loved and happy , but do i wish that i should have 'played around' more than spending time with books? Honestly i don`t know. There's a part of me that wished i had broken rules and another part of me is glad that i chose life with books and movies(when my friends were out i was at home either reading or watching movies:-) ).

Anyway looking back, everything i did in my past shaped me into who i am today, i really do love who i am today so i guess i don`t have regrets. But there's a small part of me that can`t relate to ppl(regret?) when they start talking about 'breaking rules' during school days.

Feel good moment

When your boss calls you in and says you did a very good presentation and that he's glad he hired you......
well a brilliant way to start your week :-)