In Search of Serenity

I used to go for an elocution class when i was small, i think i was 7yrs or something. I can`t remember the exact place, i know it was in Modera. There was a church across the road, after each class i stood there with my mom for the bus, watching all the ppl who went to the church. For me it seems so big; maybe bcz i was so small, like it was up in a mountain.The church was in fact in a higher ground, had to climb a couple of stairs to get to the church. Anyway there was such a mystical feeling to it, i used to stare at the building wondering what it would be like inside. I never got to go there, since we`re Buddhists my mom wouldn`t let me go inside. Lately all i wanna do is go there and feel that sense of calmness i felt all those years ago. I even tried to google the churches in that area just to see a picture of that church. I hope its not surrounded with buildings now, i hope it hasn`t changed much, after almost two decades. Going to the temple hasn`t done much to me, it was just too crowded and i just didn`t feel that sense of serenity i was hoping to feel by going to the temple.

I try to find comfort in songs, usually gets my mind off things and makes me feel a bit better. There`s one particular song that i always listen to when i wanna run away and hide, Dare you to move by Switchfoot. I need to start listening to it again.