Wednesday, October 15, 2014

The crazy 8

That's how the extreme mood swings were described by Tony Robbins; the crazy 8. Yes,I've been listening to a lot of those lately. Mostly because of my crazy mood swings and my extreme resistance towards change.
Talking about change, that's what marriage is all about. Change in routine, new family members to hang out with, more duties to do......I certainly do not want to lose myself in of all of these changes, that's what i'm scared of most; Losing my identity. To be honest not even sure what I want to do anymore..

All this time I thought I wanted to climb up  the corporate ladder and be this 'big shot', but the strangest thing happened the other day. I had to walk past these 'big shots' in the company(they had come for a meeting), as I walked pass them I just couldn`t picture myself being one of them. All this time when I see powerful women I just tell myself that's where I wanna be. But now that I'm 30 I just don`t feel like working towards that goal.
Anyway my new goal is retiring at 35:) I realized that I need some new goals to keep me alive and not go into weird depressed moods.
Found this site http://www.gratitudelog.com/ which seems to be helping me out quite a lot. Being grateful daily does seem to keep my demons away.

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