For the Love of X-Files

I grew up with X-Files (yes I'm a 90s kid). Mulder was the first love of my life and still was to a certain extent (until I saw the new series that is...will explain). My friends even called me Mulder, I was a total Xphiles fan. Anyway back then one of the main reasons I watched the show was to see the 'tender loving moments' between Mulder and Scully. Two decades later when the X files creators rebooted the series I just couldn`t be happier! I never thought I would ever see a new X files episode again! Plus so much has changed in my life since I last saw it.

After waiting for so long I watched it, Mulder's character which used to be a legendary smartass sensitive/toughguy character has turned into a sad lost boy who has aged. I expected the character to evolve properly, he certainly did have that mental toughness back in the day.And for Scully, she has turned into the smartass one now. And their relationship seems so weird.Last night's episode made me think how sad my life has become honestly.Let me explain....Scully says at the end of the episode that 'she wants to remember how it was all were back then'..so much nostalgia about good old days. I felt like X files creators and fans wanted to go back in time when everything was 'amazing'. Then I realized how many times I re-watched X files episodes over the past two decades remembering the good old times. It reminded me of my carefree school life. And when I heard Scully's words it just hit me...I need to stop living in the past like this and make my 'now' productive and be more present and really live it as it is. Life is happening to you right NOW. Not in the future or past...right NOW.

So I'm gonna take a break from watching old X-Files episodes and feed my mind with books or watch Impact Theory by Tom Bilyeu (amazing brain food btw).

Note to self. Live now..Today...This moment....that's all you ever gonna have.